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My way to release stress

Recently many things make me feel irritated, a lot of things in my mind....I do not know how to help myself to overcome those problems. The only way i can do is as usual....what i do as usual when i am stress and no way to release it?? see the pictures below then you will understand...

This are those previous piercing

This are mostly previous piercing and my NEW CREATION...

Guess which one?

What a sunday like?

Nothing very special for my Sunday (16/05/2010) as the whole day i was busy with my FYP literature review. I had realize that i am so busy as monday i need to show Miss Anita my MPAP assignment which i haven't complete and it due on this coming tuesday. But now i am still stick with my FYP literature review. What a busy life in final year?

Tomorrow suppose to go for gym session with Miss Helyanna but i really freaking busy nowadays. FYP investigation report submit on coming wednesday, MPAP submit on tuesday, follow by SMGT submit on next wednesday, and the last one ASGE submit on end of the month.I hope that i got extraordinary power so can stop the time and manage all things perfectly but it was only a dream. Anyway, no matter how we still need to face reality, time passing fast if we never catch up then we can only said "sayonara (bye in japan language" to it....

By the way, the only happening time for sunday is i went for jogging.i can't imagine i can manage to jog for 5 rounds(i used to run 1 round only usually) and climb until on top of the mountain (eventhough it was only a small mountain). Somehow,i really set the target i want do it and at the end i never give up and manage to do it. So, it was a lesson show that "believe on ourself,if you think you can do it,you will do it''. Is the time 1am,need to take a nap then continue my literature review which i need to show Miss Rohizan tomorrow (Oops,is today afternoon since now is morning already). All the best to myself~~

Karnival Pendidikan dan Kerjaya

UCTI was being invited for the Karnival Pendidikan and Kerjaya from friday (14/05/2010) to Sunday (16/05/2010) in Putrajaya. Today is my shift to duty in the Karnival. I am being staffing to work there from 10am-4pm with Miss Helyana (immigration Queen) and Derek Ooi (student ambassador). When we reach Putrajaya, we found out that we need to have a "Pertugas" sticket in order to drive into the karnival itself. But, it was so unlucky that we not even know got such sticker to access.We park the company car at the very far car park which infront of the condominium there and walk all the way across the Putrajaya bridge to out booth. i can't imagine that i can walk such a long distance which like the walking distance from UCTI to vista A.

Early morning walk such a long way was killing me a lot as we are sweating like "mandi kerbau". Inside the camp itself was also freaking hot such as stay inside oven (even i never stay inside oven before :P). The worse part of the day is we enjoyed our "smelly" chicken rice for lunch (the chicken rice was "basin".Not much picture i took as the weather is really killing me until no mood to taking picture so just can only share few of it.

See early morning just open the booth we already get 4 enquiry,Miss Helyanna was so happy as she is the best leader for the day.

Miss helyanna was counting how many enquiry that we get...Guess what, we manage to get 33 enquiry for half day compare with friday which are just only 4 enquiry....We are the best~~

4pm is the second shift which lead by Miss Hafeeza, 3 of us are so tired and hot and it was a good time for us to go back~~~I really cant control myself,the first thing i did when i reached vista is update my twitter then lying on the bed for few hours after that only enjoyed my shower (so smelly because of the sweating). Anyway, it was a good experience and UCTI is the best, FOLLOW THE WINNER.

Relaxing Friday (Outing with Friends)

Yesterday(14/05/2010) is quite a good day for me after the two days depression.My mood slowly recover after a night chatting with my dearest best friends shonghwa,Ywoan, and Gina. To release all stresses, Celine and Jerry are planning for the sing K session after working hour. 7pm 3 of us drive all the way to IOI mall RedboX with excited mood.....We found that beside the Redbow there are few Gintel massage chair opened for public which just need RM1 you can sit there do massage for 15 minutes. As you can see the picture below is how Jerry enjoyed the massage chair.

Jerry Vs Gintel massage chair,look at him so enjoyed~~~(he will kill me if he see this pic appear in my blog XD)

This is the tag from RedBox for Buffet Dinner (buffet got western and chinese style food AND japanese sushi,Yummy)

This is the RedBox sing K rate (friday night is RM 44++ per pax, thanks for Jerry and Celine who treat me Sing K,thanks so much)

RedBox Special Promotion

I can't imagine that 3 of us can sing K from 7.30pm until 12 am,we are really tired but it was so enjoyed and happy Friday night. Hope we can hang out again~~~Thanks for 2 of us so much~~~

Bad Day again

Today i feel my life is mess-up by a lot of problem...Everything are not so smooth and lucky.....I am in the bad mood since yesterday incident.Now want to do my final year project i find out that i forgot my Athens username and password. When the mood is bad,the weather also became bad as today is a raining day. My stupid student webmail's email are all gone as my email from staffordshire was all lost....What a stupid week that i had...my life is really worse this few days.God, are you play fool with me?What you want from me? I am really fed up with all things....

Bad Day

Today is my bad day that i never had in this year. I don't know why people like to take advantage with me when i am quiet. I am quiet not mean i allow anyone to play fool with me.One time is a joke, two times is a joke, but more than is consider play fool with me. I am not born to let people laugh or threat me as a idiot.I always choose to quiet and take things easy because i don not want to scold my friend.Why i can respect people but people are not respecting me?Am i too weak so make people take advantage? I will not be so kind at all as anyone can play fool or take advantage from me after this second.

Anyway, the worse part is whenever i feel sad my gastric will come and disturbing me also.Stupid gastric never appear after so long are now back with more serious pain.....God bless i will be fine.Nothing much can describe my feeling for today. Hope tomorrow will be a good day.

Busy Life

This is a busy week for me as i need to handle a lot of assignments and due date for my Final Year Project Investigation Report is near to my life. Nowadays heard a lot of news from my friends who are seldom contact with me. Some of them are graduate who hunting for job right now, some of them are getting married (is not too early i guess), and some of the senior who are enter into workplace.

Life, life....Sometimes i am thinking what will i be after this. Different stages in life got different feeling and needs (just like Maslow's Hierarchy of needs). Maybe now i do not need something but soon i struggling to looking for it, who knows? One of my lecturer was saying that you need to know what are the consequences that you want to see in your future and you just work for it. I always tell myself that i want to graduate with 1st Class Honors in order to get scholarship to further study my Master Degree in oversea but am i doing a right things in order to achieve it?

Honestly, i never put much effort in order to achieve as i feel myself is in my own trap which i rope myself in my dream world. Imagination in my dream world drive me to be a useless person right now as i waste most of my time to live in my imagination world. In fact, i need to face the reality as i try my best start from now to accept everything surrounding me and not run away whenever any things occur in my life. I know that i am the only person can pull myself out of it and i will put all my effort to do it. No matter what will be happen i will do the best....Cheer up Esther~~~

Lazy

wahaha,after so long this is my first post for year 2010....What is the reason behind? i think is my lazyness@@. This year very busy with my final year project and other final year module as well,what is the plan or dream for this year?em,i want to get 1st class degree in order for me to go oversea.....Do the best esther......Will update my Blog as soon as possible,please wait for next post....

Sweet Chat day(15/11/2009)

Sunday afternoon,after one night crazy in UCTI Year End Gathering and Maison night (will update soon in my blog), it was a day that i woke up at 3pm and run to Times Square. Suppose to go Times Square for the Anime event but i found out that is not my interest so i am just as a "Body Guard" for my roommate who love anime so much. The event are actually not in her expectation so we do not take any photo in the event. But after lunch in Station Kopitiam, our "High tea" is dessert from Sweet chat which i never been there before~~

Sweet Chat's glass Jelly with mango, Ice White Chocolate coffee and my hand~~

In this picture i look like a hungry cat waiting the owner allow me to eat.

At the end,i only drink Ice White Chocolate Coffee because i not really like to eat dessert.

After finish our "High Tea", i saw there are an event in Times Square lower ground floor beside Sweet Chat which promoting the new online game "Money King". The ambassador of this game is Bosco but i don't think that they invite him to come Malaysia. The funny thing is i was waiting the salesperson to give me the goody bag but he didnt come towards us in Sweet Chat to distribute it. At the end,i went there and get it from them.

Bosco is the ambassador of the game-money king. All the info can get it from www.moneyking.com.my

In the Event, they are also promoting this online 3 kingdom game

Inside the Goody bag i found one free magazine which already expired have our UCTI advertisement,not bad.

Happening

As usual i do not update my blog~~~so sorry with my blog~~~Today realized got anonymous comment in my blog, damn funny wei...i do not know why she want to do this but if she see this post i just want to tell her that i am not interest with her "Boy" and better go ask the person what's wrong and not come my blog to do childish things. Anything let's meet up and settle,i am not that kind of girl that do bull shit thing. Yeah,i am that kind of girl who do not like to explain but since the anonymous think too much so let's talk face to face.

This few days got stalker outside my apartment,he said that he will commit suicide.Why most of the guy like to use suicide as tactic to keep a girl with them? If want suicide then just go ahead no need disturb. By the way,make it clear,the stalker is not looking for me,is looking for my house-mate. Damn happening this week. So many things happen in once, can anyone give me peaceful life?

Holiday (Part 1)-confusion

wah....few days didnt update my blog.....no new picture so sad(actually is lazy upload)......Monday service my braces then continuosly few days damn pain...haiz,very regret to wear braces actually,spent money spent time,spent ugly and make myself painful and suffer....yesterday pain until lying down in the room didnt go my sis's shop working....Today,i am feeling better so decide to go work....her husband shop is located in ulu tiram which are 40 minutes away from my hometown....Nothing special,everyone still said i became more skinny...The happy things is i saw Tina,she shouting and hugging me when she realise i am back,her eye a bit red look like almost crying out but i choose to keep quiet so that she wouldnt cry in the shop......Quite happy to see those malay workers,they are silly but is cute for me....As usual,work until 11pm then back to my sis's house...this can consider my house ady since i always stay here when having holiday......After few days,today is the time for me to take internet oksigen (those who addicted with internet)......i open my email and saw an email from my dearest friend Princess Bee,i feel a bit heart pain,heart pain about what happen to her this few years.....My heart and mind start to be very confuse... I am stupid bitch idiot as i think......This two week will be the time for me to think what i want.....

Headache

Yesterday outing with my buddies make me very tired. Today afternoon 1pm only woke up. Get a message from "Koko mummy" ask me about go gai gai with her but i really headache dont know why. After reply "koko mummy'' message about i cant make it then i sleep back again until 5pm. After shower,i suddenly feel like want to do facial mask which is Wu Shan give me,Wu shan told me that the mask is contain 6 chinese traditional herbs so will make skin look fairness and soft. Then,i decide to pull Rach T do facial mask with me....see the pic below:

Guess who is who?? 2 mask rider....

Finally done this post but seriously i am damn headache@@ I dont know what's going on with me but really headache.. And i am puasa for whole day again....Well,my headache and mask rider post~~

Give me comment please~~

Suddenly miss my long hair after i show my last year picture to my classmates. Most of them agree that long hair is more suitable with me. How was you all think? Please leave your comment so that i can make decision whether want to keep it long or short.

Current picture,took it last month in KLIA

1 Year before,that time i still never cut my hair

Notes: Please do not judge based on my fatty face@@ and pale face (because everyone always said i look pale)

Last exam-count down 8 hours more

Tomorrow having the last exam paper which is organisational decision but now me,michelle and rachel are still gossiping in my apartment. It will always happen when come to the last exam paper.Now,i was busy for update my blog,rachel busy online shopping,and michelle multitasking-online shopping and doing revision...Below is the picture that i snap upon they are busy with their midnight stuff (notes:nobody want to study actually)

Sleeping Beauty Wu shan but actually just awake then sleep again on the sofa without study

Myself.....Acting like i am so hardworking study until sleep there. But the fact is i am 60% sick + 40% lazy......(rachel helped me to snap it)

Lazy Michelle lying on the sofa see the online clothing

that rachel want to buy

Guess what rachel do? Answer: Online shopping

Suddenly, michelle suggest that let's open an online shopping store to earn money$$. Just a plan only but is quite an interesting suggestion...Haha,they are still never realise that i am blogging about them. Before this my blog are for me to express my bad feeling,so now i want to transform myself to be a happy blogger(hope i really can do@@). This is all about the time before last exam in this semester without study and doing revision. Sorry for Michael Porter and Ms Sharmila(ODEC lecturer)......Count down for my last exam paper@@

Boring sunday

Today nothing special,woke up at 3pm but do nothing....watch tv,watch tv,thats all my day....now only want start to do my assignment... my heart tell my brain ''Is the time for you to study and do your assignment ady!'' Hope my brain will listen to it....This few weeks i have change a lot that i never realise.Yesterday my friend told me ''esther,you are source of inspiration but why this few weeks you are different? Why u suddenly dissapear?" but actually i also don know what's going on with myself...lazy time ady past,is the time for me to cheer up. Nowadays i am very worry about my FYP proposal,maybe i give myself too high expectation until i do nothing. Where is my unique idea? Senior ask me don worry cos is just a proposal which i can keep on change before i start my FYP but for me it is important to determine who i am or which level of knowledge that i have....idea,idea, where are you??? Boring sunday,cheer up my life.....

Picture from :http://jerryong.com/blog/boring.jpg

Depression

Now only realise i can straight away wrote so much blog in one day..Oops,now is ady 12.25am that mean 2nd day ady..i am a person who easy to depress.. Last week heard from my mum that my aunt depress until she suicide,luckily now ok but in hospital. The symptom like me always heard many voice surrounding,i hate that feeling..But luckily i still know how to make myself happy...i don know what i want..sometime,i will suddenly cry or go away from everyone,i don like that kind of me but i don know what to do...Life is so complicated and tired.Sometime i was wondering why i cant just rest in the coffin and let my life going to be end. I am so silly...Suddenly feel depress,don know what will be in my future,i keep on finding what i want or needs but is hard to get.I am very stubborn girl,nobody can advice me or consolate me....Life is in my hand now,i hope i can keep going on....Maybe i make myself too pressure,i want to do everythings very well and perfect...Evertime i just show people i am strong and clever but is it a true of me?i also cant answer it.....Life,i hope i will be happy.....

after sick-Lazy

Last few weeks keep on gastric pain..Even went to hospistal ady but still same condition....medicine,medicine,medicine....what a life is? Now i start to take care of my healthy (maybe)....Doctor said'' No coffee,No chocolate,No spicy,No stress",oh my god,is whole package which i love...how was my life whithout those things? i cant imagine...mum said it can be my mentally problem which i think if i sick i can prevent go to uni,haha...i don think is true....cos is really pain like hell. but this few days the condition become better..This maybe because of i eat a bit a bit only and whitout coffee life....But the things is even getting better,my lazyness become more worse....i never study or do my assignments...i don know what i am doing,just very tired and sleepy....one weeks mid sem break i just spent it for my gastric pain and my lazyness..The other 7 weeks coming,if i didnt study i going to be die soon...hope i can get the power straight away lead me to graduate,is really wonderful no need think too much....Life,KL life is worse for me..i face many things here,lost my best friend,a lot problem here and etc....wish i can be more strong and strong...

i am back

haha,long time never blogging.....since that day my e-marketing lecturer mr jonathan ask whole class '' who is a blogger'' then my answer is ''i am an ex-blogger''. Sir felt weird so asking me ''why ex-blogger?'' and my answer of course is "because i am lazy"....haha,but now a bit guilty,so come back to my blogger life....so,welcome back to blog esther.....hope this time will be last long... Any why my blog is "evil diary"???guess...guess...actually i also don know but i think myself is a evil,blog is a part of my diary so is call "evil diary''....