Pending of my new blog post

My apologize to those who always read my blog. Has been long time i never update my blog as my Final Exam for Degree level is going on. Is hard for me to update my post. So, the only thing i can do is share nice song from Youtube to everyone...Will be back to my blogging life soon.....

阿穆隆 许茹芸 男人.女人 MV完整版

Argh,the song is nice but guy really hard to believe...

星-金雅中（新版）

Flo Rida - Club Can't Handle Me ft. David Guetta [Official Music Video] ...

Mizz Nina feat.Colby O'Donis - What you waiting for [ Official Music Vid...

Canon in D on glass harp

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Found a very good website where people can adopt those pity cats and dogs for free......Anyone want pets can contact them.....Animal's life are also valuable as human being.....So please care about them....

FYP submission count down

Haiz,again FYP....FYP submission are coming to my door side.....Count down 4 days....what should i do??

This few days my gastric keep on interrupt me......very pain.....even now also very pain.....Haiz,life so suffering for what........Suddenly think of go oversea....Actually not suddenly, i was planning long time ago but now the thinking of go oversea keep on increase.....i want to fly....fly to more wider sky that i want........

Tired

Tired~~tired~~~extremely tired~~~hard to describe my tiredness now...Morning class from 9.30am - 3.30pm, after that heavy rain...waiting rain to stop but it was so heavy rain then i choose to walk to main campus by sharing one small umbrella with my classmate...after that went to office stay until 6pm...continue with peacock dance practice..After that went to interview supermarket...Until 11pm only manage to come back home....i am so tired....5 assignments plus Final Year Project....Why life so tough and tired....still need continue like this one month plus...Tired with my life,everyone holiday enjoy and study but i work,everyone after class go back rest but i work,everyone weekend go relax but i work.....Haiz,when can i enjoy my life? As i always think that is fine for me to work a lot since i am young but when the time passing,i will feel why i do not have lifestyle? why i never enjoy the time of being a student at least? haiz,this is life.....I just want a good rest....

My 1st blog in Chinese

最近的心情反反复复，不知怎么觉得很累。。。看到了很多人及见了很多事让自己觉得很烦。。。之前因为表弟结婚，结果回到了那个充满我的怨恨的地方。。。见到让我没有快乐还伤害过我的人。。。有时会觉得为什么他们会活得比我好。。。人性真得很可怕，当你什么都不是的时候，那些人不会去理会你是谁，当你成功的时候他们却来献殷勤，二十多年连正眼也不看你的人却会说你是他的家人，人原来可以假得那么可怕。。。

见到那群伤害过你的人，他们一点愧疚感都没有时，总会觉得为什么没有天理。小时候也许会害怕的躲起来但现在的我却会告诉自己我从来没做错为什么要把自己给埋藏起来。。。很感谢自己一个人可以走到今天，那么勇敢用双眼直视那群连一个小宝宝都可以以残忍手段对付的人，告诉它们我不是以前的我。。。报应总有一天会来，人不管做什么一定要对得起天地良心。。。

勇气，勇敢，倔强，凶悍等等都是朋友对我的解说。。。可是那是我想的吗？我并不想。。。但我不能，我要过的好过得坚强就得让自己成为那样的我。。。朋友说我的笑容隐藏着难过。。。难道我多年的辛苦就快爆发即使用笑容也埋藏不了吗？我相信我可以的因为我应该感激自己走到了今天而不是很早的就死去。。。

心里其实堆积了好多好多的往事。。。伤痛的背后是留下很多道数不清的疤痕，疤痕永远都不会消失一直到生命中最后一刻它还是会历历在目。。。感谢伤痕让我变得那么坚强，感谢伤痕让我成长，感谢伤痕让我记得所有人对我做的事。。。也要感谢伤害我的人让我可以跌倒了在站起来。。。

累了，这两个字不是单是说我的外表，也说了我的心。。。很累，有时候真的希望睡了就别醒但是我不能，因为我告诉我自己不能倒下，我还有我的梦想，我还要找回我的自由。。。我还要站在伤害我的人们面前大声告诉他们我过得很好。。。

Tears

Today,i talk to her...She said if she is the one,she will be appreciate...Does it mean i do not know how to appreciate? My tears slowly came out from my eye...i try myself to be strong but i can't...I thought at least she can understand me but i am wrong...Nobody understand my feeling...Nobody understand what i have been through until i became like this...If don't know my feeling please do not say something i feel is hurt...Life full of why...Life full of question marks...And who know it? Nobody know nor understand it...Just let it be...Heart feel sad,very sad because of nobody understand the feeling inside...But i think no point for anyone to understand it...As life still need to going on....Until the day i stop breathing.....Please be silent if don't understand my needs and wants....

Today's feeling

Everyday wake up in the morning, we need to thank God give us a chance to stay alive...no matter what happen in a day,just put it aside....there might be a solution maybe not now but future...Try myself to be happy every moment because i dont know when i will be leaving the world...

I always tell my friends, if one day i leave this world please do not feel sad about it...Because it might be freedom for me, free from everything....Leaving just a process of human being,the human life cycle....God Sakyamuni Buddha spent his entire life to discover how to prevent sick and die...He give up his luxury life just because he wanted to help the people in the world...But at the end,he was passed away...A lot of things in our life are out of our control...For me, if one day i leave the world,i will not feel sad or reluctant to part because that is nothing value for me to miss...

Life is so unpredictable, you not gonna to know what will be happen next second...What you get from the world, you need to return it back to the world...You will not bring anythings along with you....

Bon Jovi - It's My Life

Life

What is life? I think nobody can answer it accurate...Yesterday think a lot and also drink a lot in Opera Sunway...I hate the feeling of never drunk,if drunk at least temporary i can forget everything even forget the world...

Sometimes, i think myself like weeds...I can grow up strongly by myself just like what weeds did. When people close to the weeds it might step on it but it does not mean the weeds will die. Weeds still can grow again if the root of the weeds still there. Same as me, no matter how many things happen in my life since i was born, i still try not to give up so easy. Same as weeds, i can survive alone without anyone. Same as weeds, if people come to us they will just bring us pain. Same as weeds, no need to fertilize and irrigate. The more people fertilize and irrigate only will make us become more weak and it is not what weeds want even me.

Life...is my life, everyone have their own life...Plans in the life are also different...How much i wish my life can be meaningful...The meaningful of the life is giving love to the world who needed...That is the only love i know and willing to come out...

FYP~~~~

Argh, now start to worry about my FYP...Who can help me right now?? I am so scare and worry about it...Hope those companies will let me interview or else i really can go suicide >.<'' What a life so stressful...Temporary stop blogging mode...

Alicia Keys - No One

Alicia Keys - "If I Ain't Got You" -plus lyrics-

Good song sharing...This song was awesome...Love Alicia Keys

Wings Music Cafe

Tonight, Oops is 2am now so is consider yesterday night, i was went out with dearest Celine to the Wings Music Cafe in Puchong. This was my first time went to music cafe enjoy the live band. The ladies singer was Celine's friend that why we went there for supporting her. Her voice is so sweet and the way she sing was just like a professional singer. Anyway, thanks for Celine to introduce me new friend, it helps for my social networking....The place was just nice but so sad that i couldn't manage to take picture of it...At least i manage to find its website and share some of the picture that i got from the website in my blog.

http://www.wingsmusicafe.com/wingsBP.php

Wings Music Cafe in Puchong

New friend Tze Ying, she is a singer of Wings Music Cafe, her voice so sweet, please feel free to go support her BUT please check based on her schedule that which branches she is located before going

Anyway, Thanks for Celine brought me there :)

AIDS-Play Safe Campaign on campus

Today APIIT/UCTI got the campaign about play safe which organized by the condom brand Durex. I was not suppose to be there attend the campaign but at the end being called up by my classmate to join the talk.

Anyway, it was quite interest talk which talking about drugs taker should use new needle instead of continues using same needle or sharing among themselves. And the speaker was telling that where we can get the clean and new needle. Are they encouraging people taking drugs? this is one of the student that asked in the talk. I am agree with him in some manner but sometimes is we are unable to prevent people taking drugs,the only way we can do is persuade them use new needle and throw it away after using.

Anyway, after the talk we are getting something in return....Want to know what is that? See the pics that i sharing below~~~Oops,by the way,i manage to see ladies condom today,can you imagine there are one type of condom which design for girl? So sorry that i can't manage to take the condom's picture to show but trust me it was so disgusting when you know how to use it (i mean girl use it)....

This is the goodie bag that they we get~~~

Guess what is this....

This is what inside the goodie bag that given by Durex...

Anyway, please play safe if you want to do so or else do not play for your own risk

Prevention is always better than cure

Love yourself and Love those who loving you

Be sincere and loyal to your beloved one~~~

Condom is available in many supermarkets , 7-11 and those mini markets near neighborhood so PLEASE PLAY SAFE

Philippine SWAT storm bus with hostages in Manila

The video of the incident, after watch please remain 1 minutes silent to show respect to those victims who sacrifice their valuable life in the incident...May God bless them....Rest in Peace...

Miserable incident

Today read the newspaper about the Manila former police officer Rolando Mendoza who upset at having lost his job, held hostage a busload of tourists from Hong Kong on yesterday (23/08/2010) and killed eight of them before being shot dead...What happen with the world right now? A lot of people unable to survive under pressure are choose to use stupid ways release their undesired feeling with the world...Alright, commit suicide might be a way to end a valuable life but is it necessary to kill people in order to satisfy themselves?

A lot social issues around the world right now. Some people they want to stay longer life but end up their life are so short at the end but those who want to finish their life early might end up stay wealthy than others. I do not understand the theory behind it, maybe is just god sake. Human being from born until grow up then become old and maybe sick after that dead are the process of the human life cycle but why sometimes people never appreciate the time that given by God do the right things and deserve the right. I personally believe on Karma, no matter what we do at the end something will be return maybe not now but in the future or it might goes to your beloved who suffer karma on behalf of you.

The only thing i can mention is that life is valuable, appreciate every single moment that God and the world giving you. People can do something bad with us but we can choose forget it and just be ourself because no matter what happen we do, something might be in return in the future. Do more charity works, love and care about people beside you who deserve it, help the public as much as you can, and be a better person....Last thing that want to say is please remain 1 minutes silent to console the spirit of the Hong Kong victims who dead in the Manila incident......Wish them rest in peace...

丁噹 [ 我愛他 ] MV官方完整版

My way to release stress

Recently many things make me feel irritated, a lot of things in my mind....I do not know how to help myself to overcome those problems. The only way i can do is as usual....what i do as usual when i am stress and no way to release it?? see the pictures below then you will understand...

This are those previous piercing

This are mostly previous piercing and my NEW CREATION...

Guess which one?

What a sunday like?

Nothing very special for my Sunday (16/05/2010) as the whole day i was busy with my FYP literature review. I had realize that i am so busy as monday i need to show Miss Anita my MPAP assignment which i haven't complete and it due on this coming tuesday. But now i am still stick with my FYP literature review. What a busy life in final year?

Tomorrow suppose to go for gym session with Miss Helyanna but i really freaking busy nowadays. FYP investigation report submit on coming wednesday, MPAP submit on tuesday, follow by SMGT submit on next wednesday, and the last one ASGE submit on end of the month.I hope that i got extraordinary power so can stop the time and manage all things perfectly but it was only a dream. Anyway, no matter how we still need to face reality, time passing fast if we never catch up then we can only said "sayonara (bye in japan language" to it....

By the way, the only happening time for sunday is i went for jogging.i can't imagine i can manage to jog for 5 rounds(i used to run 1 round only usually) and climb until on top of the mountain (eventhough it was only a small mountain). Somehow,i really set the target i want do it and at the end i never give up and manage to do it. So, it was a lesson show that "believe on ourself,if you think you can do it,you will do it''. Is the time 1am,need to take a nap then continue my literature review which i need to show Miss Rohizan tomorrow (Oops,is today afternoon since now is morning already). All the best to myself~~

Karnival Pendidikan dan Kerjaya

UCTI was being invited for the Karnival Pendidikan and Kerjaya from friday (14/05/2010) to Sunday (16/05/2010) in Putrajaya. Today is my shift to duty in the Karnival. I am being staffing to work there from 10am-4pm with Miss Helyana (immigration Queen) and Derek Ooi (student ambassador). When we reach Putrajaya, we found out that we need to have a "Pertugas" sticket in order to drive into the karnival itself. But, it was so unlucky that we not even know got such sticker to access.We park the company car at the very far car park which infront of the condominium there and walk all the way across the Putrajaya bridge to out booth. i can't imagine that i can walk such a long distance which like the walking distance from UCTI to vista A.

Early morning walk such a long way was killing me a lot as we are sweating like "mandi kerbau". Inside the camp itself was also freaking hot such as stay inside oven (even i never stay inside oven before :P). The worse part of the day is we enjoyed our "smelly" chicken rice for lunch (the chicken rice was "basin".Not much picture i took as the weather is really killing me until no mood to taking picture so just can only share few of it.

See early morning just open the booth we already get 4 enquiry,Miss Helyanna was so happy as she is the best leader for the day.

Miss helyanna was counting how many enquiry that we get...Guess what, we manage to get 33 enquiry for half day compare with friday which are just only 4 enquiry....We are the best~~

4pm is the second shift which lead by Miss Hafeeza, 3 of us are so tired and hot and it was a good time for us to go back~~~I really cant control myself,the first thing i did when i reached vista is update my twitter then lying on the bed for few hours after that only enjoyed my shower (so smelly because of the sweating). Anyway, it was a good experience and UCTI is the best, FOLLOW THE WINNER.

Relaxing Friday (Outing with Friends)

Yesterday(14/05/2010) is quite a good day for me after the two days depression.My mood slowly recover after a night chatting with my dearest best friends shonghwa,Ywoan, and Gina. To release all stresses, Celine and Jerry are planning for the sing K session after working hour. 7pm 3 of us drive all the way to IOI mall RedboX with excited mood.....We found that beside the Redbow there are few Gintel massage chair opened for public which just need RM1 you can sit there do massage for 15 minutes. As you can see the picture below is how Jerry enjoyed the massage chair.

Jerry Vs Gintel massage chair,look at him so enjoyed~~~(he will kill me if he see this pic appear in my blog XD)

This is the tag from RedBox for Buffet Dinner (buffet got western and chinese style food AND japanese sushi,Yummy)

This is the RedBox sing K rate (friday night is RM 44++ per pax, thanks for Jerry and Celine who treat me Sing K,thanks so much)

RedBox Special Promotion

I can't imagine that 3 of us can sing K from 7.30pm until 12 am,we are really tired but it was so enjoyed and happy Friday night. Hope we can hang out again~~~Thanks for 2 of us so much~~~

Bad Day again

Today i feel my life is mess-up by a lot of problem...Everything are not so smooth and lucky.....I am in the bad mood since yesterday incident.Now want to do my final year project i find out that i forgot my Athens username and password. When the mood is bad,the weather also became bad as today is a raining day. My stupid student webmail's email are all gone as my email from staffordshire was all lost....What a stupid week that i had...my life is really worse this few days.God, are you play fool with me?What you want from me? I am really fed up with all things....

Bad Day

Today is my bad day that i never had in this year. I don't know why people like to take advantage with me when i am quiet. I am quiet not mean i allow anyone to play fool with me.One time is a joke, two times is a joke, but more than is consider play fool with me. I am not born to let people laugh or threat me as a idiot.I always choose to quiet and take things easy because i don not want to scold my friend.Why i can respect people but people are not respecting me?Am i too weak so make people take advantage? I will not be so kind at all as anyone can play fool or take advantage from me after this second.

Anyway, the worse part is whenever i feel sad my gastric will come and disturbing me also.Stupid gastric never appear after so long are now back with more serious pain.....God bless i will be fine.Nothing much can describe my feeling for today. Hope tomorrow will be a good day.

Busy Life

This is a busy week for me as i need to handle a lot of assignments and due date for my Final Year Project Investigation Report is near to my life. Nowadays heard a lot of news from my friends who are seldom contact with me. Some of them are graduate who hunting for job right now, some of them are getting married (is not too early i guess), and some of the senior who are enter into workplace.

Life, life....Sometimes i am thinking what will i be after this. Different stages in life got different feeling and needs (just like Maslow's Hierarchy of needs). Maybe now i do not need something but soon i struggling to looking for it, who knows? One of my lecturer was saying that you need to know what are the consequences that you want to see in your future and you just work for it. I always tell myself that i want to graduate with 1st Class Honors in order to get scholarship to further study my Master Degree in oversea but am i doing a right things in order to achieve it?

Honestly, i never put much effort in order to achieve as i feel myself is in my own trap which i rope myself in my dream world. Imagination in my dream world drive me to be a useless person right now as i waste most of my time to live in my imagination world. In fact, i need to face the reality as i try my best start from now to accept everything surrounding me and not run away whenever any things occur in my life. I know that i am the only person can pull myself out of it and i will put all my effort to do it. No matter what will be happen i will do the best....Cheer up Esther~~~

Lazy

wahaha,after so long this is my first post for year 2010....What is the reason behind? i think is my lazyness@@. This year very busy with my final year project and other final year module as well,what is the plan or dream for this year?em,i want to get 1st class degree in order for me to go oversea.....Do the best esther......Will update my Blog as soon as possible,please wait for next post....